An uncomfortable hush fills the space I am in. A distinct rumble starts to invade the air and I find an odd comfort in it. I can feel my body being pushed and held flat against the fake, blue leather chair I am perched in. A double ding clearly provides permission to connect to the wireless outside world. This is the tenth time in the last 365 days I have lived this. Each time I am utterly elated and simultaneously mystified.
Strangers surround me in this incredibly heavy, long metal tube. They sit within inches of me. My mind races wondering where they are headed and why? Together, we are journeying to thesame geographic island, yet no words are spoken and no eye contact is made. 40,000 feet up above the soil and water that comprise the planet on which I reside, I silently converse with God about all that I am leaving behind to embrace an adventure that I have no control over.
On this day, I am leaving behind so many things that define me. This realization peppers my reality. I am ultra aware that when I awake tomorrow, no one will know or care what I do for a living. No one will know or care for whom I work. No one will know or care whose mom, wife, or daughter I am. I will be part of a mix from all over this terra firma that is merging together to worship and serve.
On this day, I am leaving behind so many things that bring me security. My cozy yellow cottage, so warm and welcoming. My black and currently topless vehicle that allows me the freedom to go where ever I desire. My "studio" that is filled with precious childrens books, as well as, gleaned and foraged art supplies. But most of all, oddly enough, I am leaving behind my favorite, gently-used yellow cardigan.
On this day, I am leaving behind many people that are embedded in my heart. The "Precious One". The "Gentle One". The "Humble One". But most of all, I am leaving behind many "seasoned" friends yet to be introduced to you.
Today, I release all these "things" that I am leaving behind. With one hand, I timidly slide it into my Creators and with the other, I hold it out and wide open to embrace this advenure in front of me and pick up the new discoveries.
Come with me as I journey. My writing might not be perfect and clean but I promise to share my heart and authenticity as I skip through these next seven weeks.
He's got this.
Until we chat again,
- The Plank-Eyed Girl.